does it really matter

I should've reached out
that I did too
I should've shook you
I should've asked you to
open up your eyes

forget everything I said
and here's the bottom line

there will be no one like him
ever again
God stopped making them

lets all remember his smile
they, us, we, you
I loved him
and still do
God does too
thats why he took him so early

this is awesome my friend
reading your emails again,
i thought i would faint or throw up
or feel an intense pain,
but there's only this numbness.
i love your thoughts man, so clean, full of hope,
loving, caring, intense, blessed.

maybe i couldn't understand you,
most of our lives
we spend time lost in our own little hives
with pre-conceived stupid notions and misconceptions,
about eachother
stupid enough to judge others
on the basis of how we see...
when life is a 2 shot scene
life is a 2 shot scene
so obviously obscene.

And I am sorry if i caused you any pain,
for the time that i made you wait on me,
i know you waited, but i couldn't get back to you sooner, what a loser

So i raise my hands tonight and pray to God
that one day we will meet again,
and that day we will hug again, like we use to bud,
that tight warm candid hug of yours

you never hesitated,
even for a second
and that's how i remember you
and your Bulgarian dreams
sipping down the caspian sea

please forgive me, and ask God to forgive me too.
i don't know what to do,
what to say, in any way,
i wish i could see you or talk to you one last time,
but like you said in reply to "Bulgarian Dream" bro...

when you love someone,
there is no last time.

His plan is divine...

Maybe I couldn't understand you,
most of our lives
we spend time lost in our own little hives
with pre-conceived stupid notions and misconceptions,
about eachother
stupid enough to judge others
on the basis of how we see
when
life is a 2 shot scene.
life is a 2 shot scene.
so wickedly obscene
but
life is a 2 shot scene.